i'm emily and i'm still trying to figure out who i am. i set very high standards for myself, so my self esteem is exponentially low. i'll never know why i cry for getting a B in school, but i know i want to become successful and not have to struggle with money or jobs or any of that scary stuff. frankly, i don't ever want to grow up. i love being young and at times, not giving a fuck. i see my friends everyday and THANK GOD because they keep me sane. being an adult seems so stressful but i know the time will come in the blink of an eye so i just hope it turns out great. a nice husband and kids are all i really want in the end, but judging by my lack of boyfriends im not expecting much. i go through obsessions with a guy for a few months, then move on to the next. some guys are flings and others i actually care about; they all end badly. boys have never been my thing. its hard to remember how lucky i am. i know there are so many people in this world who have nothing. my parents are divorced and that probably has the most effect on who i am. i fight with them A LOT because they dont let me do shit. both my mom and dad have had various relationships since the split. some of these people i loved with all my heart, but just as soon as i became attached to them, they would leave. i guess that's why i always have my guard up - anyone could come in and then out of your life like that. i hold onto memories so strongly. life is precious. i'm a fun loving person. i get to travel a lot. life is short. i want to look back someday and remember all the great times ive had through the years. but for now i'm just going along for the ride.
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